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Wednesday, November 30th, 2005
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I've got a wordpress blog now. Most posting will be done here still at the moment, until I make a permanent switch. It'll allow me to get my own photo-hosting going on eventually though, so that's exciting. Check it out:
fragmented.wordpress.com
Enjoy!
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Monday, November 28th, 2005
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Cue obligatory LJ update:
Let's see. So Thanksgiving was very odd this year, probably because nothing feels right in life at the moment. I just feel all out of place, like I'm just kind of floating through everything. I haven't had time to spend with anyone or doing anything, when I've got so many things that I'd like to be doing.
I did manage to get my English paper done and turned in on time (relatively). I actually checked out books from the library and for the first time in my collegiate career it felt like I was really writing a paper, not just sitting down and spitting out crap.
So now I've got a poetry project for my other English class, and a bunch of logs to do for Psych of Women. I've got two more weeks of work to get through while still maintaining some time for myself, and there are a ton of things I'd like to do, but don't have time for. Oh, and finals.
My possessed microwave just beeped at me for no apparent reason. Oh, and evidently we have a five inch rat lurking around in some crawl space area behind our dishwasher. I'd like to spend some time in the photo lab, but I'm not sure if I'll get to before the semester's up.
I've decided to apply to Sweet Eugene's again, and also to Coffee Station. I desperately want to work at a coffee shop next semester. Speaking of next semester, I need to figure out what independent/directed study I'm going to be taking.
I recently discovered The Beautiful Mistake, and I must say I'm digging their music a lot. That and the awesome versions of Christmas songs that I've been downloading, including "All I Want For Christmas Is You" by My Chemical Romance. In literature, I just finished up reading The Catcher In The Rye by J.D. Salinger, and I loved it. It really resonated with me. This is where I segue into my future plans for reviewing books, movies, and music. I'm planning a major overhaul for my website, including a new layout, and I'd like to add a lot of content. I think it'd be a pretty nifty way to keep track of the things that I read, watch, and listen to, and also if anybody was curious about it, they could look it up. Of course, this is something that's going to have to wait until I have some time over Christmas break.
Well, there you have it. That's pretty much the rundown of what's going on in my crazy life right now. Maybe if you see me around you can either (a) stop me and get me to pause and breathe or (b) cheer me up in some fashion. Having this much stuff to do on my plate is kind of a drag.
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Sunday, November 13th, 2005
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Choir trip was pretty rocking this weekend. Yay for having an awesome host family that spoiled the crap out of us, staying up playing Lucky Bastard, and the Cheesecake Factory. Jarrod, Matt, Adan and I were all in the same house. Pretty crazy.
So I have this laundry list of things to do (including some laundry), I've got this crappy cough going on, and of course, I'm really unsure as of what I'm supposed to do in a lot of life.
So what am I doing, with all this crap that I need to do, and spiritual refocusing that I need to accomplish? Um, I just did a survey, I'm listening to David Spade, and I'm chatting and about to go make some more food. Basically I'm screwing my time away doing nothing. Great.
( Random Survey )
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Saturday, November 12th, 2005
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Barn Dance, Fall 2K5. Go check out a few pics.
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Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
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New Poem. Let me know what you think.
The Thrill
I was fox-hunting
chasing seeking sleek
swift mysteryious creatures
that eluded me,
when I turned
to find a lame one.
I shot her dead.
EDIT: Updated. More comments please. This could be vitally important.
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Sunday, November 6th, 2005
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I need to go to bed. But I don't especially want to at the moment. Well, I guess the truth of it is that I feel I the need to update this sucker.
I finished reading Catch Me If You Can and moved on to The Catcher In The Rye. I've actually never read it, but I started it today and read the first 3 chapters. I like it, and I'm kinda surprised that I've never read this for school.
Jarrod and I went to see Jarhead on Friday, and I thought it was great. Sam Mendes, Jake Gyllenhall, Peter Sarsgaard and Jamie Foxx are all excellent (Sam's the director, in case you didn't know, and he also did American Beauty). It easily made my top 25. So did The Weatherman, which we saw last week.
I picked up the new The Juliana Theory and Project 86 albums this week. They're both amazing. I can't believe I didn't buy the P86 one the week it came out, or that the TJT album took so long for me to decide to listen to. I also picked up the Happy Christmas Volume 4 album... good stuff.
I spent a large part of today watching rugby matches out on the pitch. Man was that fun. I took a bunch of pictures, hopefully I've got one that'll make it into Monday's Battalion.
Thursday we saw the Spazmatics again. Ben Idom cracks me up. That boy is fun to hang out with. Oh, and I finally went to Pei Wei, and I'm so glad it's finally here.
I bought a pair of those Chinese balls that you spin in your hand when I went to see Sallie at Earthbound. Fun store. I'm getting pretty good with them. Haha, I'm a dork.
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Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
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Sometimes I read my friend's blogs and they amaze me. A certain few friends, usually. This time it was Steve. Here's some of his post, edited for brevity's sake,of course - I wouldn't rip anything out of its original context.
I want to talk about fairy tales. ... I'm not going to say that I'm opposed to fairy tales, but I do have some beef with them. ... because they create this "happy ending" idea that one day you will have no problems. It's the same reason I hate chick flicks which are kind of like the teenage girl version of fairy tales.
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Life isn't about finding the problem free happy ending, it's about making the most of it all even in the face of conflict and problems. I want to write a fairy tale someday about the unluckiest man in the world. Nothing good happens to him. He is a miserable little scum. Then one day he realizes, "You know what, it doesn't seem that life is going to ever throw me a bone, so I might as well learn to find happiness without having it fed to me by circumstance."
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This is what happens to people who wait for happy endings. They eventually get old, look back on their life and realize, "Crap, I've wasted my whole life waiting for something better than this." |
Sometime's my friends post better explanations of my life than I can. I wonder how that works. I think it's the grace of God, shining through and saying "Hey Marc, you're not alone in the world, so get off your little overly emotional buttocks and do something with your life. I'll take care of the womenfolk/school/insert melodrama here."
In other news, my iPod crashed my computer today. Which means I probably need to upgrade the firmware. And, I found out I'm finally getting a grade for my study abroad work. I'd better have a friggin A in 311. Oh, and I actually managed to go out and listen to Tom Short without a heated debate. I should've reminded him that he said I was going to hell last year.
I've heard this one before, about the princess and the pauper.
I know just how it ends now, it doesn't end well, it just ends.
Some things you learn from hurting yourself,
Some things you learn from hurting someone else.
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Monday, October 31st, 2005
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10 random things of today:
1. Walked around campus with Thomas and our cameras
2. Took a picture of Reveille dressed up for Halloween
3. Revised and typed my poem for class
4. Turned my medical excuse in to my tennis teacher
5. Walked through the first real rainstorm in College Station this semester
6. Went to Best Buy and bought NOTHING
7. Figured out how awesome Anadivine and Coheed are for broken hearts
8. Fishtailed on wet asphalt
9. Made a Burger King costume and wore it to Java Wesley
10. Got smacked on the ass by Lindsay.
( I love, I hate, I miss.....stolen from Callan )
Java Wesley was fun. Today was mediocre. Tomorrow doesn't look too much better at the moment. I've got a bunch of ideas for poems that I haven't had time to sit down and write. I started a long poem today, a very fun concept that I haven't really tried in a while. The other day I wrote a little acoustic thing on my guitar, no words, but I enjoy it. I think I may try to record some of my stuff that I haven't been able to put words to and just play them until I figure out what might go in the blanks. Or just have the music w/ no words. Ah well.
Here's hoping that someday I can get some time to do some stuff that I'd like to, as opposed to always doing crap that I've got to get done for school and work. If I could have just a little time to do my own stuff, I think it might be very therapeutic. Someday...
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Sunday, October 30th, 2005
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This week has been full of mediocre ups and downs. It's like that little kiddie roller coaster you used to ride at the fair when you were small. The one where you sat in a dragon and all it did was go around a circle and go up and down, in mildly aggressive motions. That's still the only roller coaster I've ever ridden.
Basically I'm ok... But then again, the emo-kid side of me wants to go wallow in a corner with his buddies self-pity and social isolationism. My Astros lost, I've had a lot of schoolwork. The Aggies got creamed by Iowa State today. My romantic life isn't exactly in full swing.
But there's lots of small things that have been good. I managed to get my paper done without dying. Aggie Soccer is awesome, we beat Baylor 4-0, Big 12 Champs! I got to see Nancy and Thomas today, and both of them are going to be at Java Wesley. Jarrod, Elizabeth and I saw Saw II and The Weatherman the last two nights. Both were good, but The Weatherman was better (and is highly recommended on Marc's top movie list). rearranged my room this evening. I got to talk to Alicia for the first time in forever. I have a pimp new suit, and I got a haircut.
But all at the same time, I feel highly unfulfilled. I think I'm going to try and pursue some more items of self-satisfaction, and this may mean that I have to take time out of what I don't have to take time out of, in order to do the things I'd like to do. Wow, I think that was one of the most confusing sentences I've ever written. Basically, some things that I don't really want to set aside are going to have to be put on hold at certain times if I'm going to be spiritually and emotionally satisfied.
I need some more God in my life. This is a hard thing to accomplish sometimes. I feel like I'm at the end of everything, as always. But life will work out, it always does. God is faithful, He always IS. And I think that is one of the most powerful and comforting thoughts my brain can attempt to wrap around.
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Thursday, October 20th, 2005
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| Mood: |  ecstatic. | | Music: | We Are the Champions. |
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ASTROS WIN!!!!! WORLD SERIES, HERE WE COME!
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Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
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One out. Damn you Pujols, you're an amazing hitter.
Game 6 = All about the O(swalt).
GO 'STROS!
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Sunday, October 16th, 2005
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Well, my visit to Asbury went great. I don't have a lot of time to type, so I'll let you know a few things, bulletmania style (miss ya, Hammer).
- Wilmore - small town. 5k people, 1/2 of those are college or seminary students
- Campus is beautiful
- I ran into Katy Ware, in the Hebrew class I sat in on
- Dorms...well, they're dorms. But they look good enough.
- Intramurals! sweet
- Met with my future mentor. Great guy.
- There's basically two streets and three places to eat in town.
- Lexington - 15 mins away, Louisville - less than an hour, Cincinnati - 100 miles. Big cities are close.
Overall it was great. I finished Blue Like Jazz on the flight, and I want to type about that in depth but I need to go get some sleep so that I can wake up for early church in the morning.
My Astros are whippin them Redbirds. WHOOP!
Aggies beat OSU today, scoring 62 points. WHOOP!
Texas and USC won...dang.
Aggie Soccer beat Oklahoma. WHOOP!
Tonight I hung out with my bro, Warren, Taylor, and Wesley. Yay for sucking at Halo. We visited Josh at the coffee shop, talked about music, and had a grand time.
Ok, really going to bed this time. Seriously.
Peace. out. seriously.
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Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
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In case it's not obvious to you, I shot the Texas A&M - Nebraska soccer game on Sunday. The Aggies won 4-0, mainly on the leg of Kat Krambeer, who notched her first career hat trick.
Tonight I shot pictures of the Ross Volunteers' induction ceremony. It made me want to be in the Corps, a lot. Oh, and just to make all of you girls jealous, I got to shake Keaton and Tyler's hands. If you're into that sort of thing.
I've been stressed out a lot lately, from classwork, my impending visit to Asbury, work work, and more self-imposed stress. Hopefully I can find some relief from all of that this weekend.
Psyc 300 test tomorrow, so I need to get some sleep. Go Astros!
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Thursday, October 6th, 2005
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So I think I've got tendonitis in my elbow, which means that I shouldn't be using it too much, but I will be anyway.
Check out this photo of Jason Carter. He might as well be calling you out.
Next week I'm going to visit Asbury on the 13-15th, then coming back home for the rest of the weekend (I'll get in sometime around 8/9 pm Saturday).
I'm staying up way too late again. G'night folks.
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Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
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So I shot my first Aggie football game this weekend, and twas quite fun indeed. It was also quite hot, intense, and far too close for comfort as we were on the brink of losing to Baylor AT KYLE FIELD!
Things I learned from shooting:
- The sound guys for TV are jerks.
- The FSN camera man and his cable lackey are also jerks.
- I need to hang closer to JP, he gets insane shots.
- It's always good to bring in a bunch of good shots for the paper even when there are 2 photographers better than you shooting the same game.
- Gates is smaller in person than I thought.
- I had no idea how loud/obnoxious the opposing team's band was on the field.
- Reggie's visor makes for crappy pictures.
- I love being press.
All in all, The Battalion used 5 of my photos online and one in the paper, meaning I made a total amount of 140 dollars for the work I did. I put a couple of my unused shots on flickr, even though technically, I don't think I'm legally allowed to do that without getting a release first.
God needs to take a look at his calendar...it's October and it's still a 100 degrees here.
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Friday, September 30th, 2005
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So today was a pretty great day. Except for the fact that I woke up a little late, my day was fan-freakin tastic.
I woke up late, so I didn't have time to eat breakfast, meaning I struggled through my first class (English), and that I was starving by the time Social Psychology was over. But after that, I met Emily for lunch, and we went to get sushi.
Jeepers mister, lunch was great. First of all, it was sushi. Second of all *and more importantly* it was with Emily, and she's awesome. I mean, she likes ZAO and sushi, among many other things.
Psych of Women was pretty good, too, we watched a rather humorous video, and that was it.
Dinner at the Idom's house. Good food, fun times, 'nuff said. Man I missed that last semester.
Oh, and yesterday I went into the lab and talked to Dr. Eilers, who's letting me use the photolab again. I showed him some of the pictures that I took in Bryan on Sunday afternoon, and I love watching him "play." He's like a kid in a candy shop, exploring every aspect of my shots, looking at lines, curves, crops, everything.
At the end of everything, I felt like Zack looks here - pretty darn happy. Plus my mom and dad come up tomorrow, and I've got no class. This means free lunch and getting to spend time with my parents who I haven't seen since mid-August.
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Wednesday, September 28th, 2005
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I just ate a whole cucumber (sliced, with just a bit of salt) and drank a bottle of mint flavored water after exhausting myself in the 105 degree heat playing tennis today. I feel satisfied, like the look Bac has on his face here.
This has got to be one of my favorite old photos that I've taken, because I had no idea what I was doing, but it turned out great. I took it with a disposable camera on a mission trip, but I didn't center him, and I shot from a great angle. Makes me smile inside.
Dang. I think Jarrod just snatched the shower before I could get to it.
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So I get into Wesley on Monday afternoon, around 6:45ish, and immediately after walking in the door I smell some gosh darn delicious food. I follow it down to the TV lounge, where Andi is eating some Jin's. Right then I knew what I was going to have for dinner, so I called in an order for some combination lo mein. Now CSI is on the TV, so I have to wait for a commercial break to go pick my order up, and when it hits I bolt for the door. I jog down to Jin's, they hand me an order, I pay, I jog back, making it into the TV lounge just in time for CSI. I settle in, prepared to enjoy what is so far a great episode and what should be a great meal. There's only one little problem. It's not my order.
That's right, I opened the box up to find nothing resembling lo mein. This frustrates me to no end, because not only am I going to have to go back and wait for my food again, but I'm gonna have to miss some CSI. It all worked out okay, though - I got two free egg rolls, managed to keep track of what was going on in CSI with a little help from Ryan Wolt, and the world is still turning as far as I know.
Anybody know of a place you can get a vegan meal in College Station?
My photos made it up in Rumours today, and they'll be on display until mid-October (the 12th or so). So stop in and take a look.
I'm hoping to take some of the free time that I don't have and spend some time in the photolab doing black and white prints. Here's to procrastination!
New Project 86 cd came out today, buy it at Best Buy for the low low price of $9.99!
Other mindless drivel...um, I got nothing. Until next time, I'm out like disco.
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Monday, September 26th, 2005
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So my family is safe and sound, power has been restored to the Brubaker household, and my Oma is back at home with her cat in this old house of hers. My parents were secretly hoping that her house would get knocked over by Rita, as she shouldn't be living alone anymore and she refuses to move. Thus, it would have been, well, convenient to come back and find some significant damage to the house.
Anyway, I took this shot back in March.
So my pictures are due to go up in Rumours this week, I've got so much work to do, I'm staying up waaaaaaaaaaay too late tonight, and I think I've hit a state of insomnia. I had some pictures developed today, and I think I might try to play in the lab and print some this week. Hopefully I can get a nice little set made. My family is gonna try to come up and visit on Friday I think, which will be really nice since I haven't seen them since I came to school. For some reason I miss them a lot more this semester. Probably because I wasn't with them most of the summer.
I have a lot of pictures that I want to show you over the course of the next few posts... pictures that are already on flickr, but I really feel like sharing. So look forward to those.
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blah.
shitty.
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awake.